Friday Lust

It’s been ages since I’ve written a Friday Lust post and that’s mainly because I’ve only been window (internet) shopping for things I can afford. But then Selfridges sent me an email with a link to this:

Pink Sequins

Sequin two

L.K. Bennett x Preen Sonic Dark Pink Sequin Dress, £550

If you aren’t wowed, it’s because you need to go online and see it properly – do it now!

Sequin 3

I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it. Might have to sell my house… 

20somethingfreak has moved on!

Hello everyone!

***It seems that I somehow messed up the scheduling so this didn’t post last Monday as it should have done. Sorry – here it is now!***

Well, the day is finally here and I am 30 years old. As from today, all of my 20somethingfreak followers will be re-directed to 30somethingdreamer.

I’m super excited to begin a new decade of blogging. I thought about giving it up but then I realised that would be the definition of insanity and what I should actually be doing is blogging more frequently, not giving it up. Duh!

I feel like I’m the same old me except that this time, I’m not so much blogging to fill a gap in my life but blogging just because I like to write and ramble on.

I’m in NY right now, likely having the time of my life. I’ll update you on everything when I’m back. In the meantime, have a super week and get those Christmas trees up 🙂 x

Meet My Princess!!!

Oh boy am I a lucky girl! Saturday just gone, the bf and I embarked on the most important mission of our lives and we went to collect our new baby. Lexi is a Staffie cross, 2 1/2 years old and just about the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen!

She’s come to us from a broken home but thankfully has never been abused and she’s settling in a dream. Hour on hour her confidence grows and she’s really starting to show us her mischievous personality.
LexiThere I am cuddled up to her on the sofa, which is pretty much her favourite thing to do. I’ve never met such a cuddly dog, she even gives my parents’ dog, Rudi a run for his money!

So here she is! She’s not great at posing for photos but as and when she does, I’ll share more because she’s just SO cool!

That’s all I have to say, I just wanted to brag about the epic new addition to our family 🙂 x


A Hop, Skip and a Year’s Gone By!

CalendarHello friends! Can you believe we are nearly at the end of September already? This year is flying by and we are officially back into my favourite time of year, September to December. Or as I call it, Party Season!

Whilst I’ve just been bumbling around in my own little world for the last few weeks, I did actually pop out of my bubble long enough to realise that we’ve just had LFW and therefore, we’ve just had my 1 year anniversary of being single. I know I dated someone for a few months earlier this year but really I’ve spent most of the last year as a single girl. This is the first time I’ve been single for any significant time since I was 14! On that basis, I thought I should probably reflect on what I’ve learned this last year because I’m a very different person now to who I was then and I’m a million, zillion percent happier than I’ve ever been in my entire life.

I literally cannot comprehend that this time last year I wasn’t eating, couldn’t sleep and generally felt like I’d messed up everything I’d ever done and would continue to do so with all future ventures. Obviously I was heartbroken but I wasn’t really mourning the loss of the man who I’d split up with, I was heartbroken that I’d failed again. I blamed myself for the whole relationship going wrong and that just wasn’t the case. Yes, I played a part in it and I definitely was not a perfect girlfriend but he was not a perfect boyfriend either. It took me quite a while to really make that stick in my head but once it did, it made me realise that not everything that goes wrong is my fault.

Since then, I’ve been on a number of dates with a variety of guys, some great, some ok and some plain terrible. I’ve also dated the aforementioned guy who was exactly the reality check I needed. Dating him raised the bar so far beyond where other relationships and boyfriends had been because for the first time ever, I’d been fussy and found someone who I liked as a whole package. Now I know there are guys out there like that, I’m not settling for less again!

That mentality has carried further into my life than just relationships…I’ve spent a year fending for myself, proving that I can survive the tough times. I can keep myself alive and I do have a great family and friends around me to keep me entertained and for the odd hug when things are difficult. More than that though, I’ve realised that I can’t “fake it”. I’ve spent most of my life trying to fit one mould or another and I’ve never felt happy. I hadn’t necessarily realised that was the case before now but looking back, it’s blindingly obvious why I’ve spent so much time feeling miserable; I’ve rarely spent any time pursuing the things that my gut told me were right.  I think this could be one of those things that you learn as you get older and I’m possibly a bit behind the curve in learning it but I’ve got there now!

This year has been absolutely invaluable because it’s forced me out of my comfort zone of following the lead of other people and I finally know, at nearly 28 years old, that I can look after myself. I will be ok and it’s not a problem that things go wrong because life is all about learning from those experiences. I live a life of extreme highs and lows but that’s what I’ve always wanted so who is anyone else to tell me that I need to keep things on a more even keel?

So here I am a year later, still single, without a proper job, totally broke and happier than I can ever remember. Sometimes things really do happen for a reason, even though it’s hard to see that reason at the time. This year has been a rollercoaster and a half but the ride has been thrilling and has smashed away the blocks I had been building my life on. It’s given me the opportunity to re-build from the ground up and this time the blocks have been replaced with balloons. They may burst, they could float away but whilst they’re there they are colourful, fun and anything but a heavy burden to carry around. x

The Best of The Rest

Yesterday I had some spare time as part of my lazy Sunday so I decided to mooch around the internet a bit and look at some of the results Google throws up beyond the first couple of pages. Specifically what I was looking for was online fashion stores that I didn’t previously know were there. It can be so easy to go to the same old sites…ASOS, Very, etc. but that can often mean you end up in the same get-up as your friends and tonnes of other people out there too!

There’s a fair bit of mooching still to go in order to find the real gems I know are out there but I have found some initial goodies. The first site I found which I hadn’t known was there is Promod. Promod is a French brand and when I was in Lille last year I found some funky t-shirts in their store, sadly the one I bought died in the first wash as it went in with a brand new duster! So now I am super excited to find them online and I found some good looking bargains too. Here are my faves:

I love this 60s inspired dress, the design is simple yet striking and the choice of colours is right up my alley! You can add this little beauty to your wardrobe for just £39.00.

Continuing with the 60s theme is this fab orange swing coat. Orange is such a big colour right now and it’s so good for autumn. Try it and you might just like it!

The coat is £95.00 but if you like it, it’ll be an investment piece you’ll be wearing almost non stop for months, if not years on end. Grab it now here.

Stepping aside from the 60s colour pop trend, I have also found some great British inspired treasures with much more traditional colour ways for winter in the UK.

I love this jacket so much! I would however, try it out with a dress and some biker boots for a more edgy look than they have here. It’s £47.00 but I think it’s one of those you could put with anything and definitely clash it with other colourways. If you were, however feeling a bit more conservative, perhaps on a work day, I think these shoes would look just fab with this jacket:

These are a total bargain at just £36.00 and would look totally hot with dresses as well.

In my next post I will tell you about the other sites I found but I just had to go first with Promod as there were so many tasty items 🙂

As an FYI, I am not being paid by Promod, I just love their stuff!!!

Anyone else got any good “secret” online stores they have found? x

Buying vs. Selling

I’ve spent the last few days pondering whether the reason I buy so much is to fill the void I have from not selling anything. Every now and then I have a little clear out (which to me seems huge) and I sell some bits and pieces on ebay. When I do this, I actually tend to spend less money on buying as it seems I get my kicks out of selling. In fact, I actually get a bigger kick out of selling and get ridiculously excited that I have managed to do so. Given that I don’t have a huge amount of capital behind me to set up a shop of any kind, for now I am restricted to selling my old bits and pieces on ebay and making that buzz stretch out for as long as possible – free listings this weekend btw so a great time for a clear out.

Given that I can only sell a limited number of items, does it then make it ok for me to spend again as I have sold? I keep selling things telling myself I will do something useful with the money but I keep then spending the money on more things I will sell a few months down the line. How does one break this vicious cycle? Will I ever be content enough with what I have not to shop? Even for a week?

Has anyone else been there? Can anybody help me!?! I fear I may be addicted to spending money and my bank balance is not thanking me for it!


Look into my eyes…

Oh yes, I really am about to tell you about my first encounter with hypnotherapy. I can’t really believe just how out of character it is for me to actually go and do something like this but I have!

I went to a local hypnotherapist in Reading for my free consultation and as I stepped into the room I realised that I was in for a whole lot more than I had bargained for. Firstly, it was the exact opposite of the clinical, stark environments that hypontherapists inhabit in films. The room was literally full from top to bottom with paraphernalia! There were pictures, postcards, quotes, theatre tickets, all sorts – some of which had been arranged especially for me. The part of the room I was to inhabit was literally the world’s most comfortable leather chair which I happily snuggled right into.

I had thought that I would tell the therapist what I wanted to happen and he would talk to me about putting me in a trance. What actually happened was he asked me lots of questions about me and my family, job, etc. and then freaked me out by asking me to close my eyes to establish the real reason I want to be a puppy trainer and the reason was there! Similarly when asked to close my eyes and describe a memory from a particularly tough time in my life, my mind was literally blank. I had a big black rectangle sat just behind my eyes – mental!

Anyhow, we progressed to a me being in a state of relaxation whilst he basically created a story in my mind involving me. It was very bizarre and somewhat disconcerting what that revealed and it has left me somewhat on edge about whether or not to go back. I went to get in the right mind frame for a diet and somehow now have a lot of deeper, darker things that need to come out first which I’m not totally sure I want to happen. I have however come away with a technique for putting my mind in a relaxed and safe place instantly which I think I will be using a lot from now.

Has anyone more sceptical been to see a hypnotherapist? Was it the same for you or only for me as my mind was open?

Very, very strange experience and not one I would ever have imagined having!


I want to ride my bicycle…

Super quick post, I just have to share this with the world…I exercised again today! Go me, I am so proud!

The bf and I went for a bike ride in the woods which I’d like to say went swimmingly but in all honesty I was a bit grumpy to start with. This was my second time riding in about the last 8 years and the woods was difficult, too many trees with their stupid roots making it all really tough! So I moaned and grumbled until we came out of the woods and down a road. So glad we did, the road was a steep hill so we whizzed down it, I felt a bit like a dog with its head out of the car window with the wind sailing past my ears. We saw Mapledurham House to our right and then cycled back along The Warren admiring all of the posh riverside properties. Lovely! In total we descended and then ascended about 1000ft and rode / walked a bit for 5miles according to the iPhone app he used! I am so super proud I just had to share it!

That is all 🙂

PS Having written my previous post, I decided to set up a separate blog for my candida diet journey, this can be found here so check it out: Candida Free

Candida Get Out!

Ok, so here I am again determined to battle through my digestive hard times. Having scoured the net for the last 3 years and been to many doctor’s appointments (to no avail), I am now fairly certain that Candida is behind how rubbish I have felt for the last few years.

So…here I go on the diet, hardcoring it this time, have bought a special cookbook and everything! Today is day 2 and I am just dying for something sweet, even just some fruit!

I’d like to invite anyone that thinks they are suffering or knows they are suffering with Candida to join me on this journey and share your experience – safety in numbers and all that!

For those of you who are not sure if this is for you, here’s a quick checklist of the symptoms to watch out for:

And that is just some of it! Please post a comment if you’d like any advice or want to join me on the diet – I can post diet tips and recipes if you want! lol!
Self motivation is key and I’m hoping that writing this will help – wish me luck 🙂 x

Blimey – 5 Months Already!!!

Wow! I knew it had been quite some time since my last post but 5 months seems insane – what a time it has been and so much to catch up on.

Run down of events since my last post:

End November – my birthday! Spa hotel and super sexy KG shoes from the boy to celebrate my quarter century…love, love, love!

December – work Xmas party, tres fun, delicious dinner in the Forbury restaurant in Reading, purchase of super fit All Saints leather Jacket – £200 in the sale – half off! Lots of family fun times and Grease in the West End. Rudi, the Miniature Schnauzer enters my parents’ life – absolute bundle of love. Sadly I move out shortly after

January – new year, super healthy, impossible to stick to diet which did nothing at all to help my tummy, just made the world very depressing. Moved out – was told I would be living with a woman, in reality live with a couple and a child most weekends; my idea of hell, looking forward to the next move in June!

February – Valentines fun, a gorgeous meal in Brighton with the Mr and finally a promotion at work!

March – Hard times! Sold the beautiful yet expensive car in favour of an orange Punto with a broken windscreen wiper – boo! Teechers – me, on stage! So yes, more theatre, it keeps cropping up but this time it’s me 🙂

April – not a lot has happened so far but for 1 thing tonight which I want to talk about… Go Karting!

I think it was right at the end of Feb that a group of us from work went Karting at Teamworks in Reading. They have electric karts and the track is fairly small but I smashed it – did really well – until the point where it mattered and I ended up with no podium place; I blame the guy that span me. I was however top performing female by quite a way and the adrenaline was akin to that of an opening night at the theatre. It got me thinking that maybe, should my non existent acting career not work out, I could have a career in racing. In the last few months I have also considered puppy training, opening a cafe, opening a boutique, etc, etc. Something tells me I’m not quite cut out for the office lifestyle!

I had finally reconciled myself with the fact that I didn’t win when I found out that there was karting mark 2, minus the guy who span me last time… oh boy, what an experience that was! Tonight was the most fun night in AGES! This time we went to Premier Karting where they have petrol karts and boy was that the real deal! The track was loads bigger, more fun, the karts were faster and there were more overtaking spaces. I crashed so hard my entire body lifted out of my seat (and luckily landed back in there) – it was immense! The best thing about it was that I made it to the 3rd place on the podium as well – absolute love! So, if anyone knows how I make this a real hobby and find out if I am better than anyone other than my work colleagues, please post as I have made this my new mission. I am an adrenaline junkie – it just so happens I get my kicks when performing in a theatre or on a karting track!

That is it for now, just wanted to get my buzz out there 🙂